expectations

a strange sensation occurs when you realize that your life is viewed not through the perception of others, but rather their expectations. when one day you are confronted with "that's not how I thought your life would be" while you are still rubbing your eyes and yawning trying to figure out what's for breakfast- thinking life was fine, it was what it was and what it was was good. but evidently, that's no longer allowed. what you do- no, things that happen to you have to fit a certain expectation or your spectators go home disappointed. i say this: i'm running the show, i am the show, and there's no money-back guarantees. it may not be what you wanted it to be, but at least i try to keep it interesting. i just don't understand how someone can hold it against you if your life doesn't fit into their vision. unpredictability is a bitch, but it's real.