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ack- nothing like anxiety in the morning. mixed with an overdose of caffeine it can be lethal. it is amazing: no matter what drug you are on- when your future hinges entirely on one event [scheduled late in the day] it will ruin all means of pacification. i am like a jittery time bomb. zoloft sucks. it's different when something unexpected happens: you don't know it's coming so there's no build up- only shock and then the aftermath. when you are instead aware of a crucial-potentially-life-changing moment there is violent dessication to the nerves. i speak only for myself really. hopefully someone can relate...